i was almost an abortion

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

baggin it

look n listen





  •  shooting today, Quentin
  • house, warehouse
  • suits, tom brown
  • gritty, dirty, overcast fluorescent light
  • slick upscale clothes
  • stairwells
  • chain link
  • fences, steps, windows boarded up
  • loving this.









don't give up

Whitney Houston - Step By Step




well there's a bridge,
and there's a river,
that i still must cross...
as i'm going
on my journey
though i might be lost...

and this old road
is rough and ruined...
so many dangers along the way.
so many burdens might fall upon me
so many troubles that i have to face...
 
but i wont let my spirit fail me
i wont let my spirit go
until i get to my destination
i'm gonna take it slow
because i'm making it...


step by step.
day by day,
mile by mile...
go your own way.
whatever way that happens to be.
it's your own voyage,
your own journey.
your own mind,
body
spirit,
soul,
touch,
thinking,
path,
destination,
it's your own way.
so don't let the haters hate. don't allow their words to fog your clear perception of where you should be, could be, would be. it's not their place, time, and it's not worth your energy to waste time worrying, thinking, trying and failing in their eyes, because it's their eyes, with their own accomplishments, failures, twists and turns and they will never come close to what they have in their own  twisted warped minds that will ever measure up to what you should be, in their eyes.
do it for you.
do it because...
do it for no one else
because in the end,
at the end of the day,
when no one else is there...
i guarantee you will be able to look at yourself in the mirror, and smile.
because your hearts no longer breaking, the room has stopped shaking, the earth is no longer quaking, and your destiny has become something of your own making.

common baby, got to keep moving.
common now, ya got to keep moving.
common girl, it's time to start moving...
it's yours,
it's here.
it's now. 












Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Smile 2012

Michael Jackson - Smile (Arem Krotov remix_2012)





                           smile...
tho your heart is breaking,
smile,
even though it's shaking,
smile
all around is quaking
smile,
i am of my very own making.
but you gotta smile,
for the best things in life are most definitely worth waiting,
smiling 
stops your mind from racing,
smile,
no more anticipating,
smile,
it's too aggravating,
so smile,
and stop all of your waiting,
smile,
life is yours for the taking...



so for at least, until tomorrow...

I'll never fall in love again - Dionne Warwick



what do u get when u fall in love?
a guy with a pin to burst your bubble....
that's what you get for all your trouble.
i'll never fall in love again.

 u only get lies n pain n sorrow.
so for at least, until tomorrow,
i'll never fall in love again.

but then, it happens.
the one person you think is beyond ever falling,
ever committing,
ever making it official...
one day, you hear from a friend of a friend,
or, on facebook,
that it's true.
and then you have to look back on your own jaded past and think...
if he can do it, well, maybe, possibly, even maybe probably,
i can do that very same thing, too.
and so the story goes,
the never ending happy tale of love.
sometimes you miss it by the closing of a door or 
the turning of a corner...
but then,
one day,
someday,
maybe even next Monday...
it could happen to you.
and the world seems like just a little nicer place to be.


and you can breath again...
until of course,
you kiss a guy
and catch enough germs to catch pneumonia,
and the chances are,
he'll never again phone ya...
but that my friends
is only in silly love songs...


so for at least, until tomorrow...
 

 





CUMMING NOW!

Ellie Goulding - Halcyon (Full Album)


IT'S HERE...
IT'S QUEER!
GET OVER IT!

J/O J/O J/O J/O J/O J/O J/O J/O
DON'T SAY A WORD IF UR NOT INVOLVED IN THE CONVERSTAIONS ABOUT IT...
CAUSE THEN U JUST STUPID.
CUZ I DONE TOLD U BEOTCH!

SAM COLT,
COLTON FORD
JOHHNY GUNN
TIM KELLY
ADAM KILLIAN
(2 NAME A FEW)
STARRING IN!
J/O
GET IT!
NOW!
 




 


  http://www.amazon.com/J-O-Joe-Oppedisano/dp/3867874298

THE NEW BLACK...it never changes





 



never stops, never slows down, never once, and never twice,
i ask myself when will it be over, but my answer is, never, and guess what, i'll always have to sacrifice...
it seems like only yesterday that someone told me that one day i'd wake up n find that i had somehow gone astray and found myself in better days, but not for long, i heard this song, it sounded sweet, and was quite unique, but nothing came from it, you see, it just fell silently on broken dreams.
so now i know that times have gone, they've come, they've played, they sung some songs, they made me think that i was better than everyth would i ever see, the dangers that were so very clear to me...the things i wanted the very most, were things that now, i find that i fight for, and so tired of fighting, so beat from trying, all i want is to just relax, have fun and enjoy the fantasies i have set upon this earth...

is that at all even possible?????

i think not.......................
but i never give up the hope that one day....just maybe...just once.

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http://seasonsofpride.com/2010/11/masculine-photographer-joe-oppedisano/



RED IS THE NEW BLACK...





 











THE END.

Sunday, November 4, 2012

More Drama

Mary J. Blige - No More Drama (Thunderpuss Club Anthem)


pain
no more pain.
no drama...
no more in my life...

i'm almost about to cry.
i feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
i can't do it much longer.
i thought i'd survived...
but what i did was survive one drama,
only to be hit in the face, literally, with 3 more.
i wan't to move on.
up.
forward...

i choose to win.
but it may not be in the cards.
i was dealt a bad hand.
i about to loose my mind...

no more.
no more
mo more...