HO HO MUTHERFUCKIN' HO!

Okay, it's done...

and the time has come

to put behind us

all the crap that this past year's brung.

i'm moving on

i'll start again,

but don't forget,

i don't play games...

sometimes people think that being sweet

means your stupid,

until they see

what i hide

deep down inside

is more ruthless

than you could ever guess.

so don't you think

even for a sec

that i'm just some washed up, haggard wreck.

cause u aint seen my best work yet

just you wait,

and do not forget

that here i am,

and i told you so...

so let me take you

outta control.

my been there, done that, had him, yea well,

attitude comes straight from hell.

and if by chance you even think

i'm a has-been/used up/tierd queen,

all i can say

is take a look...

i do things that you cannot overlook.

 3 books, some videos, and a dvd

what's that you say?

i thought so, queen!

  HO HO MUTHERFUCKIN' HO!

 sincerely, thank you, to everyone

who helped me through

what has become

the very worst time

of my life...

i hope it's over,

i pray for it to be,

everynight.

i know i say that everything

happens for a reason,

but come on, i mean...

really?

why'd i have to go through

all that crap, i hope it's true

that what my motto

reads, to date

makes all that shit

be worth the wait...

merry christmas,

happy new year,

2013...

bitch, you better be fierce!

xoj/o 

piss off!

Christmas comes but once a year,
so here u go, u fuckin' queers...
read my blog, cause i show trade...
and unlike the rest,
it's all home made.
so don't say i don't give u anything...
ho ho ho...
ring-a-ding-ding.
merry christmas, i love you all!
there's more to cum,
just wait ya'll!
xoxo
j/o

 

piss off-

 it's not easy being me...the things i hear, the things i've seen...they all get misconstrued it seems, when i try to be nice, it gets seen as mean.

yesterday, i met a guy, on scruff no less, and he stopped by. he dropped his pants, he pulled out a huge dick, before i had the chance to even take a lick, i asked if it would be ok, if i photographed him, and with no delay, he say yes, and so i began to take the time to make him look somewhat refined. we shot not even 50 frames, i had the shots and they looked great, but then i asked if it was ok, if i used them as i wanted, and he said, "ok". so when he left, i took the time to Photoshop them, and dame, he looked fine. when i was done, i used them here, in a post with a message that was very sincere. i posted one, concealed online, and then my phone began ringing overtime.  

 "i'm not happy!" was all he said, "why?" i asked, and that was when, he threatened me, told me that he didn't want his photos printed publicly... "excuse me, really? i even asked..." he threatened me and then i gasped. so let this be a warning, guys, if you let me shoot you, be advised, that the reason that i'm doing it, is cause i'm a photographer, now do you get it?

you may be hot, even divine, but guess what baby, stand in line...

if you agree, and if we shoot,

 there is nothing more for you to dispute. pull your cock out? show off your hole?

now it's for the world to see, so understand, you've lost control...

if you don't want the world to see, keep it in your pants,

 it's that easy...

 btw, this is NOT the guy i'm talking about...but  to u queens in the 
DC area...bottoms especially...if your smart, and have a hungry hole, here's the man you need to know...
xo j/o

who knew?

every now and again,

though oh so rarely,

but sometimes when

you least expect it,

there it is...

the thing you never even

knew you missed.

and then there it is, right in front of you...

from someone, somewhere, out of the blue...

it's never who you thought it'd be,

but who really cares, they're there,

just be relieved.

they know the answers, somehow, they do,

all he while it's been sitting

right in front of you.

so stop asking questions, 

just let it be...

maybe things will change,

sit back and see...

i love u buddy....

Buddy  
Buddy Holly - Everyday - Original

and never once in all that time, did i ever stop and question, why? it was obvious, the natural thing, without him i was just, nothing...

he always looked up and you'd see him smile, 

that's when i knew that all along, it was so worthwhile...he made me laugh, he made me cry, he made me see what i never did inside...i caught his eye, or rather, he caught mine, in Citibank, one stormy night, i picked him up, i fell in love, i named him Bud, and never once did i ever think that a love like his was even possible for me. he changed my life, he made it sweet, he brought me something, quite unique...he is the love of my life, so say whatever that you like, the boy is mine, and i say that with pure delight!

i love you Buddyboy.

xo

daddy

 

there once were giants...

have we learned our lesson yet?there's too much hate,too much greed, not enough time for  those in need...


there...



  There were once giants...



were once giants who rules the world, and they were indifferent to everything that mattered, calused to anything that people cared for, impatient to all others, and concerned with no one else. they were beasts, gods and demons, and they battled till the end. there was no time for tolerence, not a minute spent on love, nothing seemed important, except their thirst to drink pure blood. nothing, nowhere mattered...and they died amoung themselves...no one won, everyone lost, nothing gained, only their demise

...

Adele - Skyfall (Clark Kent & Oscar Daniel Remix) [Free DL] HD

...and that was just about the time 
when i looked around me and began
to wonder exactly when it was
that my troubles started to take off
like some vicious evil trend... 
where was i? what was i doing? who was there with me? was it possible i didn't see it coming? did i not notice or try to make it end? can it be all just a dream, or is it now reality or maybe zen? 
could i have ever, in a million years, tried to stop the falling down of all my tears? is there someone who can help me cope with all my fears? is something out there keeping me from ever getting ahead, or is it just what's brewing inside my twisted head? can someone out there be watching over me or am i satans child instead? is everything i've ever done just par for the course, or will it all add up and then, i'll be much better off? do people even notice me, my work, my written poetry? or is it all just never seen? i'll never wonder ask or need to have them tell me but it seems, that sometimes when they look at me, they remember things i've let them see, and in return they sometimes deem my life is worth more than i could dream.
i've stopped asking, i've stopped wanting, i've stopped seeking, but don't really know why...it seems all like a part of me was taken years ago to die. and when i lay down every night, i ask myself just why. i cannot stop believing that tomorrow begins tonight. the sky around me tumbles, and the mountains crumble down, the concrete i am standing on sucks me down much like quicksand, and the room i'm in begins to spin, that's when i stop, and look around, and try to start all over again.

 maybe this time i can win...

 

 

where would you be now (sure is pure)

 The Doobie Brothers - Long Train                                         Runnin'

         (sure is pure rmx)

Have you ever stopped and wondered if,

but truly if and only if,

all the bad times we endure

we suffer through which seem obscure,

turn around to be the greatest gifts,

ones from which we benefit?

What if something that you missed

were pissed about

and then dismissed,

was a time that you 

would not have wished

on anyone, 

so in fact, you were blessed.

What if after a bad break up

your man, u find out,

had crossed the line.

instead of being yours, was mine

and half the neighborhood too,

divine!

would u want him anyway?

i think not.

fine...

be gone.

next in line! 

(i hope that he ends up doing time...)

So you see always something good

comes from what you wish you would

have never felt, or seen or heard,

but stop, look, listen,

and just observe.

that, in time,

you'll be just fine.

so relax,

be happy,

to yourself, remind...

and then one day, and just in time,

you'll somehow see

that in fact the reality

of the something bad was really,

destiny.

Without these things we think mistakes

where would we be?

instead take

the very worse times you have had

and turn them round

to good from bad.