everywhere I look

everything I see

I get the feeling that

this will all come to me.

in time.

don't rush this Joe,

don't go fast

go steady and secure

today I bought an audio recorder.

I feel that I think it will be easier for me to write my story if I hear myself tell it. so that's the plan. I'm kinda in a weird place where I'm learning about myself and who I am as a sexual person. back in the day I was a whore, nowadays, with Jory, I feel very weird towards him. I think that he is actually the love of my life, and because of that I couldn't share him...nowadays I want to see him sucking a guys cock or, whatever. I'm maturing and, I hope anyway, growing.