for many reasons...

for many reasons,

i must confess,

in my life,

i have been blessed.

people i have known and met,

simple moments i can't forget,

things that made me stop and gasp,

these are the things that can't surpass

every second

of every day

i'm learning now,

that i should just pray

and thank someone above

for all the people

that i love.

everyone of them

holds a different key

each one of them

opens up another side of me.

the building blocks of all i am

are bits and pieces

of all of them.

and when one single block is broken,

the walls shake hard,

leave me with feelings

that i leave unspoken.

for how do  you describe someone

who makes you understand yourself

with no agenda

no issues

nothing harsh

just he and you.

something clicked

something changed

and now my life has been changed.

i'll never be the man i was

because of what he rearranged

inside my head,

he made me see

i was better than

what i thought of me.

true story...

on the set of one of the films we shot, at the end of the day when we were waiting for everyone's cum shots,

erik, who had just been fucked numerous hours,

was trying, trying, trying to dump his load, but couldn't.

so, nonchalantly, laying on a table in the center of the room,

he turned his head and asked,

"can someone come over and shove a foot up my ass, something i can actually feel, to get me off"