i was almost an abortion

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Everybody Wants To Rule The World

Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants To Rule The World.HQ. ultimate 12 inch...

welcome to my life...
there's no turning back.
how does anyone expect anyone to have 
an ounce of self respect when they have 
zero respect for anyone else?

everybody wants to rule the world,
but no one rules me but me.
nothing ever lasts forever...
just because i may have been something, once upon a time ago, doesn't mean i am that same person now. 
have i not grown? 
have i not learned? 
have i not proven myself in so many other ways?
am i a one dimensional object with nothing more than what you can barely see from your tower you sit so comfortably perched on? everything and everyone will always look bad from such 
a distorted view.
have you ever thought that someone like me,
has had other things happen in their life that are, quite possibly, out of their control, and maybe they have tried their very hardest, but sometimes, it just isn't good enough.
everyone fails sometimes.
nothing and no one is perfect.
there are things you can't even imagine that i may know so much about, and visa versa, but, i am not the one here making such drastic judgement calls.
what you think you know, divide that by 100.
subtract another 90 percent from that,
and maybe you'll be 1/100th of a smaller percentage of that
and still not even be close to what you think of me.
have you walked in my shoes?
have you experienced the good or bad i have seen?
the triumphs i have made?
the battles i've lost?
the heartaches i've seen?
the mountains i've climbed,
or the hurdles i've jumped?

i've been places you've never even imagined.
i've lived dreams that your brain cannot process.
i've been there, done that, seen, heard, met and trashed things you've never even heard of.
but do i think your a simpleton?
do i look down and sneer?
do i think you are not good enough because you have taken a different path, climbed other mountains and swam other seas?

it's not for you to tell me who i am, nor for you to judge or point fingers. your life is yours, live it, enjoy it, because it doesn't last forever. it's a one time gift. and my life, is my gift.
i've not always treated it as such, 
but i am not a stupid man by any means.

my mistakes made me who i so proudly stand up and shout i am today.

regrets, i've had a few,
but then again, to few to mention.

so think what you like.
say what you'll say.
it really doesn't matter anyway.


V-you got me


When your love is strong
and it comes from the heart,
aint no man strong enough,
aint no time long enough
to tear it apart.
and that's what we have...
believe it or not,
so on the final day
if i took all the hurt and pain,
we'll end up on top.
so i won't cry cause your going away
cause the chemistry we got it don't fade
i won't be wishing for better days
cause deep inside i know
our love stays the same.
you better know...
no matter where you are
you got me.
baby near or far
you got me.
our love will never fade.
you got me.
so let me hear you say,
baby i got you...

i'll be there.

i'll never lie.

Cause you are the reason
that my heart is beating
and i am alive.
before you go
look in my eyes
i can't be replaced, no
i'm not bout to waste, no,
the rest of my life.
you gotta know,
no matter where you are,
you got me.
baby near or far
you got me.
our love will never fade
i got you.
so let me hear you say
baby i got you.

I'll hold you up
when you just can't stand.
i'll make you fly
when you think that you can't.
by my side forever,
baby that's the plan.
i'll be your everything...
i'll be your everything.

Baby i got you.

No matter where you are,
you got me.
baby near or far
you got me.
our love will never fade
i got you.
so let me hear you say
baby i got you.

        a mini portfolio
starring Bryan Feiss



ya never know...

waiting to exhale soundtrack
Chaka Khan

When he stopped to think about it,
really think about it,
he realized that it had been more than six years since he actually "celebrated" Valentine's Day.
that's when he decided that maybe he should stop isolating himself in a closet
and look for men in other ways
(than online hook-ups)
and possibly try and find a man of substance.
who knew, maybe they are still out there,
like, Wyoming maybe...
but was it even possible that someone of substance
could actually get past the fact that he actually wasn't actually very substantial.
wouldn't someone who has a real job,
who has money in the bank,
who wasn't an A.D.D. train wreck
or just plain insane
actually have the balls to let themselves fall in love with HIM?
what kind of world would it be if someone who was a real life "good person"
would have anything to do with a person like him?
maybe they'd be cordial at cocktail parties,
say nice things to his face and then as soon as he left,
they would tear him a new asshole...
i mean,
good people never say anything bad to your face...
they keep it for after when they can congregate with other "good people"
and discuss the poor so-n-so who's such a mess...
well, maybe they would just be fooled by his classic good looks which,
by now had faded like an old pair of jeans.

Was there someone out there?
could it be possible?
is it even in his cards to ever be truly happy?
would the guy have a huge cock too?

Well, he thought,
maybe you can't have it all...
but then again,
ya never know...