i was almost an abortion

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Wonderful Life

Hurts - Wonderful Life (Freemasons Remix)

tho his life, at the moment,
was not exactly what he had imagined,
it was still better than it had been just six monthsd prior.
that he could not deny.
and tho he knew that the road ahead was going to be bumpy
and mostly all up hill,
he also knew that he was strong,
he had survived worse,
and even tho he was older now than he was back then,
he was also stronger.
stronger willed at least.
he knew that whatever came toward him,
good or bad,
he could handle.
because. just because.
he knew.
he was a survivor,
and he was sure he hadn't even seen his worst day yet...
so for now,
at this second of time,
he would relax and ejoy,
laugh and maybe even cry if he wanted to...
it didn't matter,
because he was here.
he was here, now.
and right now,
that was enough.

don't let go
never give up...
accept your wonderfull life...








because tomorrow may never come,
and yesterday is already over,
can't be changed,
just a memory...
so you have this time, this moment,
this life...
i have seen too many good men go to soon lately.
tho these men lived their lives their way
with their own style and their own twists,
they burned out too soon.
but maybe,
that's part of the big picture i just cannot understand.
i miss u guys.
i thank u, i love u. i miss u.




Feel This Moment

Pitbull Feat. Christina Aguilera - Feel This Moment

this moment passed a long time ago...

every second of every moment
of every minute of every week
matters. it may not be the perfect thing
at the perfect time, but it's what you have
and it's up to you to make the moment count.
it's never going to be easy.
if it's really important
and meant to be 
it will happen.
it can't be pushed.
it can't be demanded.
it can't be manipulated
because then it isn't pure.
i have been conflicted with my own very moments that  seemingly, slip by.
they don't seem to amount to much,
and they don't seem to get me where i want to go...
but they are moments i treasure also,
because i am spending amazing quality time
getting back to the people i haven't been close to in years.
i spend every waking moment with my baby Buddy,
and he is the light of my life,
and i know one day, i'll look back
and know for certain he was always
the love of my life.

so for this moment,
i'm going to be relaxed,
and get dressed and taking him out in the snow
that he loves so much...

because once the moment passes.\
you can never get it back.
it's gone forever,
so make it count.

precious moments spent wisely...


me in the middle of one of those moments on fire island...



every breath you take and every move you make, every single day,
every word you say...all builds up to 
make you exactly the very thing, the very person you are right now and effects the very next moments, ideas, thoughts, expressions, everything really...for years till the end of the story. it makes you decide everything you ever question, creates your outlooks, visions and, well, you get it...