so, what's next?
where do u go when you've already gone down the side roads and back alleys, been to heaven and hell and then some?
you've wreaked havoc, broke barriers, signed your name, exposed yourself,
there's no where left to turn run, or hide...
nothing more to be said.
because you've already said too much,
didn't even know you had all that to say.
and the returns on the investments
that you've already made
show no sign of life, just decay.
and the more of you that you give
leaves them expecting double the next time.
wondering who, when, where, why,
but never asking "how much?" or exclaiming "how divine!"
when you give it away for free,
you hope that it someday pays off.
the idea that it will be appreciated
or returned
just goes to waste,
it won't happen.
so leaves your mouth with a bad taste...
what more do you want?
what more do you need?
i'm bleeding, i'm breathless, i've empty...
i'm bleeding, i'm breathless, i've empty...
but you still say "whatever.."
expect more more more!
and if it isn't perfection,
you just close the door.
so now, exhausted from the ideas i've lent
from my open book of a life, sans repent,
my head dropped from exhaustion,
my mind empty and spent,
nothing more i can do, nor say,
lifeless, i lay...
all alone in the cold room
no one asks "you okay?"
that would be all to kind,
too much to ask, i must say.
nothing's late, nothing's needed,
nothing's pressing, nothing's left,
and so again i ask you,
so now, what's next?
can you tell me?
do you even care?
or am i just here to be drained?
left empty, broke and exposed...
nothing inside me remains.
there's got to be something.
there must be a way.
when you give all that's inside you
you hope someday they'll repay...
but all you can do is cross fingers
and just hope and pray.
but the masses are fickle...
they've already moved on...
to the next thing,
the new one,
the hot trend of the moment, which,
has no idea what's about to come...
cause their times almost done.
will they ever stop and say thank you?
ever give credit where it's due?
ever say "wow, amazing!"
that would be too good to be true.
so once more, i repeat
because i don't have a clue...
i ask you, what's next?
no reply?
why would you?
don't even know why i'm upset,
no, i guess i do...
it's the way of the world
but it's time that they knew...
this drains everything from me.
i honestly think that i'm done,
but then something inside stirs,
and the whole process again, has begun.
God, please, this time, save me...
let me learn from my past. but i know better about me, and i know this won't last.
as i look up to the sky, right into the sun,
i know that i've already lost
and again, you have won.
