i was almost an abortion

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

READing is FUNdamental

i hate that i have to do it,
but i will.
just cause you pushed me too far.
i was nice.
you were an asshole.
you took advantage.
you used me.
you thought i wasn't gonna retaliate?
why in the world would you ever think that?

you know me MUCH better than that.
and you know i'm no fool...
so, i ask ya,
last chance...
do you really wanna play games with me?
cuz trust...
ya gonna lose!

aks yer man'zes, or babymomma, (cuz she tryin to get knocked up wit all dem loads she done be gettin shot up her cootch) fer da coins, she can supply u, don't she do that anyway?????  911 please! i has an emergen-T
dat's whatcha git fer bein shady gurl...

i'm gonna ask once more, and then, you're through....

wanna play??????


my philosophy on life has always been very simple...
we were all put on this earth for a reason.
we each play a role in the story that will once be known as "earth, where we went wrong"
that will have every single millisecond recorded and how every little air molecule responded to every petal on every plant, which was just shit on by a mosquito that was eaten by a bird that was hunted down by a cat that was ravaged by a dog that was trampled over by a garbage collector barreling down a street, who's wife's brothers ex-wife's husband is now married to some schmuck who was divorced twice, has 4 kids, one of whom went to school in europe for a semester and was on his way back from class when he decided to take another route home and so, went through an open field of wildflowers that  seemed beautiful, but, halfway through, his sneezes got out of control, he hyperventilated, and passed out, never again to waken, because he happened to be allergic to the dust molecule that had been floating through the universe for billions of years collecting disease and pollen from everywhere, and when this particular molecule entered his system, it was the straw that broke the camels back, and so, he died while sneezing back out that molecule into the world again to contaminate and hopefully destroy others. next stop, beijing!
everything depends on everything to make it happen the way it should happen.
but my philosophy is killing me today, because, as i know, all this hideous crap that is occurring ALL AT ONCE in my life is for some grand scheme somewhere to come into fruition, but goddamn it, it's driving me insane.
my phone, for some reason, is not charging.
it's plugged in, but not charging. at all.
i have bought 12 chargers in the last 4 months because i usually lose them, but none of them work.
so i can't get or make calls, texts, see or access any of the photos i've taken from it, nor can i use it to get laid off grindr, scruff, whatever.
it's the way of the world.
and right now, the world sucks.

today, truly, i wish that bitch who gave birth to me 46 1/2 years ago shoved a goddamned wire coat hanger in her cunt and yanked me out, shit, even if she waited till the middle of the 9th month, it woulda been better than the day i'm having now.


in dedication of the bloody 8 1/2 month embryonic thing that shoulda been tossed in the trash all those years ago, i am using red as i type, and it pours so venomously and deliciously from my fingers....almost as if it's flowing from the dead fetus who accidentally, and unfortunately, lived.

so, now that i have all of that off my chest, and since my phone's fucked and i am so fuckin' annoyed in general, i'm gonna go enjoy my day with Buddy...who never answers back, and is always happy, for real happy, not like that fucked up family up above!)
bye now!

j/o has left the building...

this is only a test!

it was  then, at that very second that there seemed to be a glitch, or switch, from the regularly scheduled program to static, which went immediately into the most horrific siren sound that pierced my ears straight into my brain. BEEP!BEEP!BEEP! BEEP! and then, silence.
until, not even a second later,
"this is a test from the Emergency Broadcast Company.  for the next sixty seconds we will be conducting....." blablabla.
to think, a test from the emergency broadcast company, who, if in case this WASN'T a test,
would i'm sure, be so far away from their desks, and running insanely home to their family's, or lovers, or wherever just to get away from the impending doom that was obviously about to crash right into them, probably, no, most definitely destroying everything around them that they had ever known...so, like, what good was this anyway?

he grabbed the remote and started switching through channels, quickly realizing that there was actually nothing at all on t.v., so he flipped open his dvd case of porn, pulled out the first dvd he saw, popped it n the player, hit play from where he left off last time, and as his hand slid down into the warmth of his cock, then a bit further to under his balls, his "taint", between the corduroy jeans and tighty whitey's, he felt that certain pull in his nut sack, and his dick started pulsing. and then, just as the Tom & Jerry cartoon he was watching got interrupted by static, so did his sexual desire for the next few weeks...when the video started playing where he had stopped it last time after he blew his load jacking to that scene, his stomach got nauseous, his cock went immediately limp, his whole body got clammy and he felt sure he would throw up. there it was, full, on screen, right in front of him was the sight he thought could possibly be the most disgusting thing he'd ever seen, right in front of his eyes...naked. Michael Lucas, naked, getting serviced by some hot kid who obviously needed money, bad. and that was it. vomit came rushing out from his throat, diarrhea shot out of his asshole, flooding his tighty whitey's and making a mess of everything else around him...
so, the moral of the story is, don't ever watch Michael Lucas porn, unless you-re a scat queen and want to shit all over yourself...because there is maybe nothing more vial in the universe, than him naked...even fully clothed, but naked?
don't tempt fate.

you've been warned!