i was almost an abortion

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

a jay roth kinda day

Nicki Minaj - Starships (DalePlay Remix)

if you're fortunate enough to have made his acquaintance,  then maybe you know what i'm about to say, because, you've probably felt it also.
some days, like today, i think of as a Jay Roth kinda day. it's sunny out, a holiday, there's a nice breeze, and somewhere in the distance, you can hear a giggle, a laugh, and it's the kind of joy that i get when i speak to ms. roth, he makes me happy. he's perfection.
so, today is my jay roth kinda day.
i can only imagine wtf he's actually up too, but, anyway....

make out like it never happened and that we were nothing.

Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know (Bullwack Remix)bang.

why did u have to cut me off?
 make out like it never happened and that we were nothing.
and i don't even need your love,
 but you treat me like a stranger and  feel so rough.
why did you have to stoop so low?

cause he could.
and he always weill.
i'm actually not feeling bitter at all today,
au contrair,
i'm just telling it like it is.
the way it be,
cause it's just basic humanity.

and i don't wanna live that way.

me, myself, and i.

fuck, i'm exhausted, but wide awake.
i can't imagine laying in bed right now.
and do whjat?
i have way too much to think about.
i have plans to make,
preperations to adhere to,
i need to re-create what has been re-created so many times now,
that it's actually now just silly...
but i know i can do it.
i never rush things, i never ask "when/why/how/who?"
because when it's supposed to show itself,
it will.
on it's own time.
but to be honest, that philosophy
has always been my motto and my destiny.
but this time, i need to knock on destiny's door
and ask her to please hurry the fuck up,
i am not fucking playing around gurl,

i need to know,
and i need to know now.

is that clear?

so, well, now it's like,
exactly 2:30 and now that i had an hour on Photoshop,
ate again,
smoked a pack of newports
and smoked some excellent weed,
i'm feeling my eyelids begin to fall.
i feel myself winding down
breathing, and,
even feeling sleepy.
sometimes i just don't sleep.
i like to work in the middle of the night because it's so so so so quiet.
no phones, tv, buddy, nada...
just me, myself, and i.