i was almost an abortion

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Spunk [arts] Magazine

it's the little things in life that make a difference.
just because something is big and flashy,
doesn't mean, it's good...
sometimes the most amazing things in life
are ones that you find by accident.
they fall into your lap,
and then, you wonder,
what did i do without it?

the little things in life that matter,
are things that we sometimes take for granted.
we think that they are deserved,
can't imagine not having them,
assume they will always be there.
but the greatest things that we do take for granted,
are things that our ancestors  probably didn't even imagine possible.
either that, or they are things that they may have been prosocuted for.
so it's a pleasure to know that somewhere out there,
there are people who cultivate and articulate our likes,
and develop, hone in on, and reevaluate our tastes,
making us rethink and reinvent who we are,
where we've been,
and who we will be as a society.
more importantly,
what we will leave the next generations.

for this reason, we have to give thanks to the people who actually do the legwork.
the ones who's eye can detect trends,
understand how certain things influence and change us,
and can evaluate and articulate what they mean to us as a subculture.

there is a movement happening,
one where things we maybe had visions of in a perfect society,
are all at our fingertips.
at our disposal all the time,
24/7, inspiration, art, beauty.
the hopes and inspirations of the future.
Spunk [arts] Magazine
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takes you there,
on a journey of discovery
of what is out in the world, possibly hidden,
that we all need to see.
it shows us what will inspire us tomorrow, today.
it reports to us interesting backgrounds of artists, their work, and their own ideals and inspirations. they, if read and understood correctly, will make you sound intelligent.
even knowledgeable...
it lifts the reader to understand, appreciate and learn about art in our gay society today.
it's who we are now.
and quite possibly, why.



check out these incredible inspirational people that Spunk

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Michael Jackson - Man in the Mirror (Das Glow Remix).mpg

stand tall

just because,
i think of life,
the way it was,
when i was young,
when i was meek,
a bold man's life
is what i'd seek.
to capture and control my life,
be a better man,
and make you see,
that no one
can intimidate me.
for i am me,
and i am great,
nothing can make me
negate my fate.
to be a soldier
tall and strong
walk through the fire
like nothing's wrong.
from this day forward,
from here and now,
i'll show you all,
i'll show you how,
i conqured my fears,
i conqured all
i conqured everything
that made me think i was small.
and now, alone,
i stand,


man in the mirror

yes, he's gorgeous, but does that make him perfect?

why does our past,
our own insecurities of the fat/skinny/lonely/sad kid we once were,
years ago...
keep us down, probably forever,
so that all of our worst fears become reality.
we compare ourselves to others,
never thinking for a moment that the ones we think are untouchable
are just as, if not more insecure than we are.
it's a vicious cycle,
we torment ourselves trying to be as good as,
someone who, when we get to know them, we realize,
don't deserve the honors we bestow upon them.
from afar they look golden,
they look like they have everything in the world we lack,
they represent everything we hold so precious,
they are handsome, strong, sexy, and so, obviously, too good for us.
the pedistal we put them up on,
is quite possibly undeserved,
for what we really are, deep down inside,
is what in reality,
is true.
however perfect they seem,
however handsome they are,
however rich, famous, fabulous or perfect they may be on the outside,
they, undoubtedly, have flaws that they themselves
cringe over.
they themselves hope no one will discover,
they themselves
try and hide.

everyone i approach to photograph always says the same thing...
"give me a month in the gym"
dude, if i didnt think u were hot, i wouldn't have asked you in the first place...
and in reality, none of the guys i shoot,
are as hot as they appear in the photos.
theres lighting, retouching, Photoshop, every trick in the book
that makes them appear perfect,
and in turn makes them look,
better than reality could ever let them be.
they start off as handsome, but after 4 hours of me fixing every last flaw,
they appear Godlike, which, i understand, is my fault.
i know that what i do,
makes everyone feel,
that they should be better,
but that's just how i work, thats just my style, it's just fantasy.

so why do we feel, second best,
or even third.
why do we let our past rule us?
it's absurd.
why don't we try, one day at a time,
to look past our self loathing,
any to ourselves, be kind.
we have only a short time,
we live only once,
it's our life, and our moment,
don't let it go astray.
live and enjoy it,
till the very last day.
you are as good,
if not better
than that tacky old queen
standing there in her sweater...
she may have coins,
she may be hot
but what you have, in your heart,
she probably hasn't got.
so stop, look, and listen
and maybe you'll see,
in reality, your better than,
everyone you think your less than.
don't hate yourself,
love yourself.
and one day, you'll see,
that the words i have spoken,
are true, indeed.

everyone of these guys,
has had my steady hand fix them
some a lot, some a little, some more than others,
but the fact is, they're not real...
it's glossed over,