i was almost an abortion

Monday, January 7, 2013

square one

square one.
where it all begins.
not one of us is perfect, we all make mistakes. 
without knowing it, we hurt the people who love us most. we destroy trusts, break hearts, ruin relationships, break bonds, and compromise everything we have for nothing that matters in the end. it's only when it's too late that we understand the values of what we lost. 
that's where i stand now. on the edge of a cliff, looking out on my past, thankful for what i've been given, resentful for what i lost out of stupidity, disgusted  at some of the ways i handled certain things, and hopeful that now, after i have recognized my faults and been shown their consequences,
i am praying for a second chance to make things right. 
i know i ask a lot, i know it's not going to be easy.
but i am going to try my best, little by little, day by day, to  get back to what i want, so badly.

so, here i stand, at  square one.
alone, tired, scared, nervous, and anxious.
yesterday is gone.
tomorrow is another day.
it's time.
i'm ready.
here i go... 

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