so for forty days
and forty nights,
he tried to cum
with all his might...
he jacked, he fucked,
he cammed, he sucked,
with no avail,
and not much luck.
and then one day,
out of the blue,
he ate an asshole
and in two seconds blew.
with no warning
and without trying
it just popped out,
i swear,
i'm not lying!
it shot out fast
it shot out quick.
thank God he thought,
and then he quit.
the sun goes down,
the stars come out,
and all that counts
is here and now
my universe will never be the same,
i'm glad you came...
you've cast a spell on me...
well, what you did anyway.
made me step back and rethink things i have done.
i, truly, am not a nasty person.
but my actions sometimes get misconstrued
and what i thought was cute,
turns out to be not so cute in the eyes of another.
i used to think i was just misunderstood,
now i see that i'm just mistaken for the actions of others.
maybe someone else had done something similar, but with a malicious twist.
maybe my "joke" dug deep into someone elses very core,
and hurt them.
maybe it's not always all about me....
funny, i never really imagined it wasn't.
i guess none of us do.
and as the world spins on its axis,
there are millions of different stories,
takes on actions,
and counteractions that can go too far.
but, as always,
the sun comes up
the stars go down,
and all that's left
is here and now,
my universe
will never be the same,
i'm glad this realization came.
btw, i got this beautiful note on facebook last night...
i just wanted to share...
"Hey there..... I just had to share this with you..... Whenever you feel down on yourself, please remember the people like me who you inspired with your photography... Then when I met you and you were nice than I thought someone of your stature would be..... I'm glad that I can could you in my circle of friends :). That's all.... Sleep tight mr. Joe."
with no malice did he do
anything to put him through
any kind of discontent
he didn't ever think of it...
but he thought he had been wronged,
with vicious words he then prolonged,
the end result,
which could have been fixed,
long before his words did mix
and destroyed the trust and friendship nixed,
leaving all the good he did eclipsed.
all you ever have to do
is tell me what you think i did to you,
and trust me when i say
i wouldn't hurt you in any way,
so lets move on,
this has got to be the end...
because i love you
and i intend
to make you see that
i'm your friend.
so shut the fuck up bitch!
LOL
i'm very sorry sometimes,
afterwards,
for doing things i do,
but i never, ever,
would hurt you,
never ever would make you cry,
that's not ever my intention,
and that is not a lie.
as much as i know i have to do,
the less things i actually get done.
the more my mind needs to concentrate,
the more my mind wanders.
the more i need to focus,
the more i flit.
maybe i think i have forever,
maybe i want what i thought i hated
to last.
maybe things will all be better tomorrow, and,
i won't have to deal with this ever...
maybe.
but probably not.
it's like any good novel.
has a beginning,
a middle,
and an end.
along the way though,
the characters go through various ups and downs of life.
family, love, breakups, friends, drama...sex...
it all is just part of everyday life
of everyday people
in Anywhere U.S.A..
we watch simply because the characters problems
make us realize that in fact,
our problems maybe aren't so bad.
if the troubles that these poor people deal with
can get resolved, then,
our simple humble ordinary life's trials and tribulations
cannot, in any way,
be so bad.
it's the Young and the Restless
mixed with the modern dilema's of Real Houswives,
the glamor of Project Runway,
combined with a hefty portion of gay porn.
it's something unlike we've ever seen
and somehow,
it's nearly impossible to take your eyes away from it.
it sucks us into it's vortex,
spins us around like a tornado,
causing chaos and excitment
in our own humdrum lives...
leaving us virtually glued to the screen
until we can get up the courage
to release ourselves
from it's grip.
no, it's not the new updated version of Dallas,
Knot's landing isn't back on,
no,
it's more twisted than Sue Ellen could dream up.
it's the thing that leaves me speechless and shocked sometimes,
while i masturbate and regurgitate modern life.
CAM4.
there. i said it.
the show that never ends,
has more sub plots and twists than can be imagined,
and the cast,
well, the cast...
can be anything and everything imaginable.
from what look to be supermodels
to what definitely are not supermodels,
licked his lips and shook his body as he gropped his penis and even had a guest star, some tramp, come out and play with him.
mke1977 sat chatting about his boyfriend who just broke up with him...
zyzys007 stroked his "straight" cock on cam while he did protest that he was in fact, "looking for wet pussy to eat"...huge balls tho...
fantasyguys4 are, exactly the opposite of what their name suggests...two middle aged fat guys, who, their profile states are "2 str8 cousins-road to the gay world."
babylonsexy is a tolken "gay guy" on the site..who is HOTTTTT
but then, after seven or eight hours of flipping through different cams, situations, hearing some speak, others laugh, some have friends come by, some have their wives screaming in the background, and some, are just, well, ONE, in particular, my favorite of the night, was passed out on G on the couch, cam on, as people typed how hideous he was, how he had done too many drugs, and how he was a mess....
technology has moved us into an entirely different universe,
we no longer are satisfied with the brand of entertainment our grandparents knew and loved,
we are in a new, strange, interestingly amusing new world...
go into the PARTY room, and, well, hold onto your hats! there is more chemicals being smoked, slammed and snorted than any crackden i've ever been too...hmm...
some people love you,
some people hate you.
you'll never win.
no matter how hard you try,
there will always be ones that say,
you didn't deserve it.
you didn't earn it.
you don't have the talent, drive, or mind to create something that
they just cannot, for the life of them,
understand.
they wish you bad,
they make you mad.
they want you dead,
a bullet in your head.
they don't care,
there's nothing there...
they want you to fall,
can't wait to see you fail,
and to no avail,
get pleasure in watching your lifeunveil
just to see if and when you get derailed.
they'll be watching you....
it always shocks me,
always makes me think, question, ask, and wonder...
why?
there is no correct answer to this question,
some people are just miserable....
once or twice
it's sometimes nice
to meet some friends,
whos lives depend
on the strength
and the hope,
it's what we do
to help us cope,
it makes us strong,
it makes us see
that there are other things in life
than just "me me me"
it's when you step back,
and when you look,
that you see things that
can be dictated in a book.
the simple things
in life we do
make us see
what's really true.
so no more time
is left to waste,
this time it's time,
to stop and place
yourself up front
just you,
no one else,
and then you'll see,
your like no one else...
at the end of the day
when he looked around and sighed,
thinking everything was done,
everything was finished,
everything was fine and closed...
he looked around, and realized,
that just as soon as he would finish the last chores of
cleaning up and repacking his life,
he realized that all of this would be over.
it would all change,
it would never be the same...
. That's all.... Sleep tight mr. Joe."
