i asked everyone of my friends who stepped into the bathroom at The Underground (at Lot19)'s eau de toilet last Sunday night, to do nothing more than drop trou and squat on the pot, and in 3 clicks of my camera, i would capture the pure raw essence and beauty that makes me proud to say out loud, "gurl, ur shit do stink!"
and so, with no other direction, no other demands,
Everything falls in it's own time and space, into it's rightful and just place. the time yesterday wasn't right for certain things that, if said or done, might be considered "distasteful", "derogatory", even if "divine"...but then today arrives and the storm of negative PR has blown over and everyone can now laugh, if not chuckle, at whatever it is that's said in a "humerous" way.
he isn't like the ones that care, in fact, he'll always try and take you there, anyway, anyhow, everywhere, everytime.
all the days and all the nights filled with all the pain from all those vicious fights, drew all that blood from each one of those bites...
it's hard to turn back all the wrongs and somehow make them once again alright.
i'm tired of all the pain i've felt, it makes me sad when i see the cards i've been dealt. never in a million years, would i want to live my life in fear, but fear i've lived, and so, i fought, i said some things i should have naught. but the defense mechanism i used didn't work, instead it made things worse, and so, i'll try again, but a different approach. i only want the best, you see, and not just simply for me, but for everyone, i swear it's true, i want my life to start anew. we all say things we soon regret, we say them, and then deep down forget that what we say can't be erased, and so make amends, and hope it can be replaced.
there was something in the way in which it was said.
without raising a voice, pretension, judgments,
but no, instead...
was said with honesty, simplicity and knowledge
of the great promise that lies ahead.
no one had ever told me that,
no one had ever said,
that it's ok,
be not afraid,
there's something you should know...
your knowledge is your power,
go forward,
don't look back,
always be prepared for an attack,
nothing's simple,
nothing is fair,
you pay the price,
you roll the dice,
hope for the best,
but don't expect.
nothing that is worth a damn
is ever really free.
but the price you pay
may seem an outrage
but it's just part of the plan.
what it all comes down to really,
the very end,
is a very simple thing to understand.
be kind, be gentle, be sweet, be nice
and most of all,
just be my friend.
Imiss him, badly, but honestly i can say, i will survive if by some chance, he goes the other way. just as happy, just as proud, but maybe not the way i would feel if we resolved this now, don't let time slip away... Bob.
time is fleeting.
no time to be proud.
common, really?
i just don't understand.
all the things that we've been through, most happy, some sad, through sickness, health and love...all the days and nights for so many years, my friend, this cannot really be the end. ???
