jealousy

jealousy,

such a strange thing for me,

never had it

but now i do

but why you ask,

i just simply do.

for no good reason,

i swear it's not

it's about something a freinds got,

that i want.

a thing i wish i had, instead,

of me just laying here, in bed.

tossing, turning, here alone

it makes me think of what went wrong,

and how the thing i think i want

is just what i should not.

but life is funny,

sometimes haha

this time it's serious, and so, nah...

i'll do my best to conquer this

and in the end,

secure the risk

that this jealousy,

this thing i want

will surely be,

the thing that is the end of me.

so i stop.