what if...

so, i was almost an abortion.
which means, i almost was never here.
which means i never would have seen, done, heard, felt or experienced
anything i have.
which means i never would have given anything back,
which means i never would have left any marks,
which means you would never have noticed,
which means i never would have been able to have touched you,
which means you would never have missed me.
but instead, i was born,
and made a mess of everything.