i could have had it all.

i dont know what i need from u. from anyone anymore.
i just feel like this could be my last chance to make everything right. maybe the reason i went down all the wrong paths before, was to help me get to this one shining moment...but i don't have the resources to push me the last steps of the way to fully realize something great. i'm sad. i'm scared. i'm alone. i'm losing my mind up here. i'm trapped.
i want to believe everything will get better, but nothing is...and when i look at things realistically, i see, in fact, i'm sinking further down and i am just trying to figure out in my head if i should just give up already.


i could have had it all.