i was almost an abortion

Monday, July 9, 2012

classic j/o

classic j/o

















Pumped Up Kicks (YoungLife Remix) - Foster The People

Carly Rae Jepsen - Call Me Maybe (Rize Remix)

Maybe







can't get this outta my head.



as much as i know i have to do,
the less things i actually get done.
the more my mind needs to concentrate,
the more my mind wanders.
the more i need to focus,
the more i flit.
maybe i think i have forever,
maybe i want what i thought i hated
to last.
maybe things will all be better tomorrow, and,
i won't have to deal with this ever...
maybe.
but probably not.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

cam 4 :-)

SVgoofing around on cam 4




it's like any good novel.
has a beginning,
a middle,
and an end.
along the way though,
the characters go through various ups and downs of life.
family, love, breakups, friends, drama...sex...

it all is just part of everyday life
of everyday people

in Anywhere U.S.A..

we watch simply because the characters problems
make us realize that in fact,
our problems maybe aren't so bad.
if the troubles that these poor people deal with
can get resolved, then,
our simple humble ordinary life's trials and tribulations
cannot, in any way,
be so bad.
it's the Young and the Restless
mixed with the modern dilema's of Real Houswives,
the glamor of Project Runway,

combined with a hefty portion of gay porn.
it's something unlike we've ever seen
and somehow,
it's nearly impossible to take your eyes away from it.
it sucks us into it's vortex,
spins us around like a tornado,
causing chaos and excitment
in our own humdrum lives...
leaving us virtually glued to the screen
until we can get up the courage
to release ourselves
from it's grip.

no, it's not the new updated version of Dallas,
Knot's landing isn't back on,
no,
it's more twisted than Sue Ellen could dream up.
it's the thing that leaves me speechless and shocked sometimes,
while i masturbate and regurgitate modern life.
CAM4.
there. i said it.
the show that never ends,
has more sub plots and twists than can be imagined,
and the cast,
well, the cast...
can be anything and everything imaginable.
from what look to be supermodels
to what definitely are not supermodels,

stendhalxxi    

licked his lips and shook his body as he gropped his penis and even had a guest star, some tramp, come out and play with him.



 

mke1977  sat chatting about his boyfriend who just broke up with him...

zyzys007   stroked his "straight" cock on cam while he did protest that he was in fact, "looking for wet pussy to eat"...huge balls tho...


fantasyguys4  are, exactly the opposite of what their name suggests...two middle aged fat guys, who, their profile states are "2 str8 cousins-road to the gay world."

bibigboy502, only photos can explain...



wannapeek

so i did, and the cock on this boy was HUGE!



babylonsexy   is a tolken "gay guy" on the site..who is HOTTTTT



but then, after seven or eight hours of flipping through different cams, situations, hearing some speak, others laugh, some have friends come by, some have their wives screaming in the background, and some, are just, well, ONE, in particular, my favorite of the night, was passed out on G on the couch, cam on, as people typed how hideous he was, how he had done too many drugs, and how he was a mess....


technology has moved us into an entirely different universe,
we no longer are satisfied with the brand of entertainment our grandparents knew and loved,
we are in a new, strange, interestingly amusing new world...



go into the PARTY room, and, well, hold onto your hats! there is more chemicals being smoked, slammed and snorted than any crackden i've ever been too...hmm...
does that make me sound bad too????
lol

Every Breath You Take

The Police - Every Breath You Take




some people love you,
some people hate you.
you'll never win.
no matter how hard you try,
there will always be ones that say,
you didn't deserve it.
you didn't earn it.
you don't have the talent, drive, or mind to create something that
they just cannot, for the life of them,
understand.
they wish you bad,
they make you mad.
they want you dead,
a bullet in your head.
they don't care,
there's nothing there...
they want you to fall,
can't wait to see you fail,
and to no avail,
get pleasure in watching your lifeunveil
just to see if and when you get derailed.
they'll be watching you....
it always shocks me,
always makes me think, question, ask, and wonder...
why?


there is no correct answer to this question,
some people are just miserable....



Saturday, July 7, 2012

just you,

once or twice
it's sometimes nice
to meet some friends,
whos lives depend
on the strength
and the hope,
it's what we do
to help us cope,
it makes us strong,
it makes us see
that there are other things in life
than just "me me me"

it's when you step back,
and when you look,
that you see things that
can be dictated in a book.
the simple things
in life we do
make us see
what's really true.
so no more time
is left to waste,
this time it's time,
to stop and place
yourself up front
just you,
no one else,
and then you'll see,
your like no one else...


it's now,
it's here
the time
is near.

almost done

at the end of the day
when he looked around and sighed,
thinking everything was done,
everything was finished,
everything was fine and closed...
he looked around, and realized,
that just as soon as he would finish the last chores of
cleaning up and repacking his life,
he realized that all of this would be over.
it would all change,
it would never be the same...


Wednesday, July 4, 2012

a jay roth kinda day

Nicki Minaj - Starships (DalePlay Remix)




if you're fortunate enough to have made his acquaintance,  then maybe you know what i'm about to say, because, you've probably felt it also.
some days, like today, i think of as a Jay Roth kinda day. it's sunny out, a holiday, there's a nice breeze, and somewhere in the distance, you can hear a giggle, a laugh, and it's the kind of joy that i get when i speak to ms. roth, he makes me happy. he's perfection.
so, today is my jay roth kinda day.
i can only imagine wtf he's actually up too, but, anyway....


make out like it never happened and that we were nothing.

Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know (Bullwack Remix)bang.

why did u have to cut me off?
 make out like it never happened and that we were nothing.
and i don't even need your love,
 but you treat me like a stranger and  feel so rough.
why did you have to stoop so low?


cause he could.
and he always weill.
i'm actually not feeling bitter at all today,
au contrair,
i'm just telling it like it is.
the way it be,
cause it's just basic humanity.

and i don't wanna live that way.

me, myself, and i.








1:27.
fuck, i'm exhausted, but wide awake.
i can't imagine laying in bed right now.
and do whjat?
sleep?
ha!
i have way too much to think about.
i have plans to make,
preperations to adhere to,
i need to re-create what has been re-created so many times now,
that it's actually now just silly...
but i know i can do it.
i never rush things, i never ask "when/why/how/who?"
because when it's supposed to show itself,
it will.
on it's own time.
but to be honest, that philosophy
has always been my motto and my destiny.
but this time, i need to knock on destiny's door
and ask her to please hurry the fuck up,
cause,
i am not fucking playing around gurl,

i need to know,
and i need to know now.

is that clear?






so, well, now it's like,
exactly 2:30 and now that i had an hour on Photoshop,
showered,
ate again,
smoked a pack of newports
and smoked some excellent weed,
i'm feeling my eyelids begin to fall.
i feel myself winding down
breathing, and,
even feeling sleepy.
sometimes i just don't sleep.
i like to work in the middle of the night because it's so so so so quiet.
no phones, tv, buddy, nada...
just me, myself, and i.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

what becomes a legend most.

yea, ur hot alright...












yea girl,
your body's pumped,
you got a job....
kinda.
you just had your hair did,
mani-pedi...
it's all good,
and i aint gonna put ya down or nothin,
it's just,
well...
it's been done before,
only...
so much better!
the hair was did, but it was did differently.
the mani-pedi, well, it is a new era, and a queen should get her hoofs done,
but the thing that, really, more than anything
your missing...
is style.

see, back before you were born,
back when people didn't get fed fashion and media blitzes 24/7
back then, there were people who,
from out of nowhere,
fell to earth to change it.
they were by some,
considered outcasts, misfits,
but by some, they were glorious...
fallen angels who embodied an era,
a time,
a look,
a moment.
and somehow,
after all these years...
the moment lasts,
continues, even grows.
the legends we somehow forget
are the things that queens like me won't let you forget.
they are the things
the people,
the moments
the icons
who we forever will recall as great.

joe dallesandro
heard of him?
well, if not, it's a long weekend,
and it's supposed to rain all day tomorrow,
so fire island and p-town are gonna be BORING,
and no one's gonna see ur new bikini anyway,
so,
maybe it's time to teach yourself something
that just may make you sound intelligent in a conversation
that ISN'T being had on Manhunt.
ok, i'm being shady,
but, it's only cause you're stupid...

http://www.joedallesandro.com/

http://www.nndb.com/people/089/000065891/

http://www.warholstars.org/warhol/warhol1/warhol1f/heat.html



andy warhol saw it,
and he saw it all before anyone else even knew it was something...
greatness.
natural beauty,
perfection and embodiment of what porn could have been...
what it strives for,
but never gets right.


this is our time now men,
we must look back at what is truly great,
and learn...