that's when I started to notice how all the little things I needed to happen in life, were actually coming together. it's been years in the making, and finally it feels like its being fulfilled. now I have some cash in my hand and I can afford to try and salvage something of my life. I'm at last in a good place with a great man, an amazing family has been formed, and it's something I never saw coming, but I am sure glad it hit me when it did. I swear I don't believe in praying n shit, I mean, that veil has been shed and religion and me is now only about artistic style and my love of pageantry. I remember when I was receiving Sunday school lessons from my fat disgusting old balding man priest who said that surely you would go to heaven if you confessed your sins! even if you were a murderer you could be saved! the only way, this fat balding beast said, is if your gay, then you go straight down to hell!

fuck her

I knew then that this was all bullshit, said never again, but of course I did make confirmation, KNOWING full well that I was an evil sinner who was most definitely going to hell.