i was almost an abortion

Friday, November 9, 2012

Audition Reel

jason livanis  Audition Reel


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jtgw1C2cDVM



who r u when u've never known anyone else??
why when we worry will we later wonder what for? 
when will we wonder, like, "what would we want more?"
we want what we lust.
we lust what we see.
we see everything tinted.
we think it should all be for free. 

everything happens
because well, it must.
everything is what it is
because it's well, just because.
it has nothing to do
at all with you.
you can change it slightly
if you let it just be,
but when meddling hands 
are attached to the meddling kind,
with meddling bodies
and meddling minds,
then an axis will shift
just a notch,
not an inch,
but enuf to just re-sinch
all the wrongs we once wanted
when what we wanted wasn't really wrong, 
just reminded us that once
we were what we thought we wanted,
but then found out it wasn't what we thought it would be.
when we really always had it with us, only,
we didn't see it,
it was too free.




 
 




Sign your name

djSÜNDENFALL31-Terence Trent D´Arby-Sign your name(Lee Scratch Perry remix)



time i'm sure will bring disappointments in so many things...it seems to be the way...
time i'm sure will bring disappointments in so many things...it seems to be the way...
time i'm sure will bring disappointments in so many things...it seems to be the way...
  
and there he was, almost as i had envisioned so many countless times in my mind...only this time, he was real.

could this actually be him? it? the thing he had always thought would never actually happen because he would never actually find anyone who could, would fill the requirements, but also because he had put so much energy in imagining that he would, somehow, even if he had found this creature, would destroy any chance he would ever have of actually having such a wonderful, magnificent creature love him back...he would destroy that chance before he had the chance to let the creature figure out what a mess he was anyway...


so maybe...crazy. but, could it be? would it happen? well, let's see.















and so, as the snow drifted eerily upward, spiraling and twisting, whistling as it blew,he got an idea that maybe, most definitely, things had shifted...









              (to be continued...)


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Wednesday, November 7, 2012

baggin it

look n listen





  •  shooting today, Quentin
  • house, warehouse
  • suits, tom brown
  • gritty, dirty, overcast fluorescent light
  • slick upscale clothes
  • stairwells
  • chain link
  • fences, steps, windows boarded up
  • loving this.









don't give up

Whitney Houston - Step By Step




well there's a bridge,
and there's a river,
that i still must cross...
as i'm going
on my journey
though i might be lost...

and this old road
is rough and ruined...
so many dangers along the way.
so many burdens might fall upon me
so many troubles that i have to face...
 
but i wont let my spirit fail me
i wont let my spirit go
until i get to my destination
i'm gonna take it slow
because i'm making it...


step by step.
day by day,
mile by mile...
go your own way.
whatever way that happens to be.
it's your own voyage,
your own journey.
your own mind,
body
spirit,
soul,
touch,
thinking,
path,
destination,
it's your own way.
so don't let the haters hate. don't allow their words to fog your clear perception of where you should be, could be, would be. it's not their place, time, and it's not worth your energy to waste time worrying, thinking, trying and failing in their eyes, because it's their eyes, with their own accomplishments, failures, twists and turns and they will never come close to what they have in their own  twisted warped minds that will ever measure up to what you should be, in their eyes.
do it for you.
do it because...
do it for no one else
because in the end,
at the end of the day,
when no one else is there...
i guarantee you will be able to look at yourself in the mirror, and smile.
because your hearts no longer breaking, the room has stopped shaking, the earth is no longer quaking, and your destiny has become something of your own making.

common baby, got to keep moving.
common now, ya got to keep moving.
common girl, it's time to start moving...
it's yours,
it's here.
it's now. 












Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Smile 2012

Michael Jackson - Smile (Arem Krotov remix_2012)





                           smile...
tho your heart is breaking,
smile,
even though it's shaking,
smile
all around is quaking
smile,
i am of my very own making.
but you gotta smile,
for the best things in life are most definitely worth waiting,
smiling 
stops your mind from racing,
smile,
no more anticipating,
smile,
it's too aggravating,
so smile,
and stop all of your waiting,
smile,
life is yours for the taking...



so for at least, until tomorrow...

I'll never fall in love again - Dionne Warwick



what do u get when u fall in love?
a guy with a pin to burst your bubble....
that's what you get for all your trouble.
i'll never fall in love again.

 u only get lies n pain n sorrow.
so for at least, until tomorrow,
i'll never fall in love again.

but then, it happens.
the one person you think is beyond ever falling,
ever committing,
ever making it official...
one day, you hear from a friend of a friend,
or, on facebook,
that it's true.
and then you have to look back on your own jaded past and think...
if he can do it, well, maybe, possibly, even maybe probably,
i can do that very same thing, too.
and so the story goes,
the never ending happy tale of love.
sometimes you miss it by the closing of a door or 
the turning of a corner...
but then,
one day,
someday,
maybe even next Monday...
it could happen to you.
and the world seems like just a little nicer place to be.


and you can breath again...
until of course,
you kiss a guy
and catch enough germs to catch pneumonia,
and the chances are,
he'll never again phone ya...
but that my friends
is only in silly love songs...


so for at least, until tomorrow...
 

 





CUMMING NOW!

Ellie Goulding - Halcyon (Full Album)


IT'S HERE...
IT'S QUEER!
GET OVER IT!

J/O J/O J/O J/O J/O J/O J/O J/O
DON'T SAY A WORD IF UR NOT INVOLVED IN THE CONVERSTAIONS ABOUT IT...
CAUSE THEN U JUST STUPID.
CUZ I DONE TOLD U BEOTCH!

SAM COLT,
COLTON FORD
JOHHNY GUNN
TIM KELLY
ADAM KILLIAN
(2 NAME A FEW)
STARRING IN!
J/O
GET IT!
NOW!
 




 


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